Qing Ming is here.. everyone have went to visit their relative that have past away.. i also have 2 relative have past away many years ago.. this 2 person is very close, and very take care of me.. thats is my grandma (my mother side mother's) , another is my grandfather (my father side father's)... i still remember when i young as kindergarten till primary 2 or 3, i will always in my grandma house, she very adorable me... she taught me alot of things.. even if got something wrong at home, she will be knowing before hand, she always will reminded me to not be quarrel.. when i got hurt, she was the first person to take care of me.. but on the day she past away becoz of heart attack.. we all are very scare, and we all in the hospital.. while i reach hospital and just right outside the door step, everyone have go in to see her one last time, but i didnt.. i was not scare, but is cant accept and believe.. i am regret not to see her one last moment.. i vry regret.. on the next few days, we have a worship section and prayer section for my past grandma.. i was very upset, until i cant eat well... even i back to house, i was looking at her photo and crying on it.. that time no one knowing my feeling.. when i cry no one is knowing.. on the last day, we need to buried my grandma, and there have people pay the last visit to her.. and that time i din cry, becoz my eye water is dry.. someone saw me, why this grandchild didnt cry one?? no heart on it.. on that time i really want to say.. when i was crying no one realise.. but i didnt say, becoz i have the respect on my grandma and the elders.. after so many year, we always pay the visit to her, i am bringing a happy heart going.. i know my grandma want us to be happy, not sad.. i am sure when she past away he was bringing a smile going... and right now she is being with Jesus in heaven, and lookout for us in heaven.. but when i was sharing about my grandma, i will always think of the great things that she always do to me, then i will cry out from noway..
my grandfather, he is a nice guy, very take care of me, think of me when he was cooking something.. why now i am some well in cooking, is all becoz of my grandfather.. last time he got fried fish, the first will think of me, he will always get a piece for me to try it out, even he also will do some special chili sauce for me to try... eventhough he and my grandmother and family all is buddhist, but me and him will very close... stil remember in very young age, is Chinese New Year, and on the first day we will get ang pow from him, that time i was saying, "Xin Nian Kuai Le, Gong Xi Fa Chai", then i will get ang pow... every go and see him, he look very strong, still can work, still can cook.. but one of the year, he was so sick, until walk also difficult.. one of the friday i heard from my dad that he is pass away.. that time i cant believe it.. is it real?? i feel like i was disrespect of him, coz on the next day i still go for BB parade, and thats parade is the first time in MR2.. i still play with them, make job with them.. after parade, then we will get a ride from someone car.. then that time we kena accident.. i think that time is was a teaching to me.. after i back home, i get change and go to the funeral place.. this time is becoz is a buddhist prayer, when is time to pray go and walk around my grandfather, me and my mother didnt go around with them, coz we are christian, at that time i dont think we was wrong, and i think my grandfather will forgive us.. even one of the sunday, we got bring my grandfather and grandmother the church for worship.. and thats great eventhough they dont want to always go with us.. but we all respect their decision, but they din hold on us to go for church, they still say, ya, you all go for it.. they was happy, so i will happy too.. until now he already gone for years.. and i wont be forget him..
Did you have remember the past? what you have been doing? what you have been doing while together with your close relative like grandma, grandpa, or else? is there got any excitment things that have happen with u? let us pay a visit to them, and let us pray for them...
and now i want to say to my grandma and grandfather a word:
Grandma, Grandfather
I LOVE YOU!!!
SMK Tun Aminah
